再一次，我失败了

现在我的心情还蛮糟的。。为什么？单身咯～

拖了好久，现在终于有一个答案了。。
只是结局却让我们如此意外，
没想到伟刊跟他七佬也sayonara了，哈哈
说好要摆几桌喜酒的，
到头来也只是一场欢喜一场空。

说真的，伤心，错过的确是一种遗憾。
所谓：“经一番挫折，长一番见识。” 只希望下一次的恋情会是成熟和稳重些。

当幸福在握，你是否好好珍惜？当机会在手，你是否牢牢抓紧？你应该知道，许多事物错过了，就永远不再回来。错过是一种遗憾，它常留给当事人无法言语的懊丧及失落感。在生活中，我们常在不经意之间，错过许多美好事物。昂然回首，只留下一生难以释怀的缺憾。

现在，我的心湖荡漾，思绪像大浪不断翻卷。那记忆的伤痕突然缺了一口，惊心动魄的那一句话再次飞进我的脑海里，犹如万箭穿心的痛楚直击我的胸口。
我闭上了双眼，泪水挣脱了睫毛的阻挡，圆滚地滑落下来。灰蒙的天空，已经把我那闪亮的心房给遮住了，我心中的雨依然下个不停。。

如今，一切都不复昔日的风貌。。而我只能用文字拼揍你在我记忆里的碎片。。

我不会退缩，反而继续前进，走向我那美好的未来。自古多情空余恨，此恨绵绵无绝期。。就算我现在什么都没有，擦掉了眼泪，还是抬头要挺胸。面带笑容的我并不气馁，并向前冲，我越挫越勇！= )

朋友们，让我看看你们的鼓励！XD

感触~

"Life is like a play and everything is uncertain." With the increase of age, I am more and more touched by this sentence.

It's muggy today, and now I lay in my bed and started looking for inspiration. Middle-aged year examination is just around the corner, it is approaching ! The examination is no longer so easy as before, but I am still leisurely, never treat it as a matter. Several times I have tried to struggle, but the result still remain the same every time. It is time to wake up, and the achievement of the commitments I have said before.Sometimes watch others achievements not but feel a trace guilt. As the saying goes "actions speak louder than words" .

After saying my impression, let's say something different. Most of my friends have to get their motorcycle license, congratulation = ) Alex, you should quickly go to buy a motorcycle that you say to me everyday in school XD At the same time, also congratulations to Eric Lee, Jun xiang and Lyndy.I need to wait 1 month more to get my motorcycle license T.T By the time, you all should bless me so that I passed those tests.

Love is often impulse and carried away their minds. Naturally, I am also one of the victims : P But what? I love her that's enough. = ) Unconsciously, I have been with her almost 4 months already, it's quite long for me XD and surprisingly, I treat her like a part of my precious life. In these four months, we have experienced many ups and downs, and finally. . we learn to appreciate each other ~ Because I love the way she touched me, and pulled the heart of my frustration and told me the beauty of this world, that's why until now I am still be with her.

Now is the time to stop, I want to hug my pillow warm XD good night everyone

光宗耀祖？败坏家门？

今天是考试完后的第X天，星期一，
成绩陆续揭晓，
有些人考得很好，那是因为他们读书，
有些人考得很烂，不是因为没有读书，而是不够努力
就像我，哈哈

也有些人，完全没有碰到书，成绩却比我好
看了，非常的不甘愿，所谓“扮猪吃老虎”
第一次输给了你们，就不会再输第二次，
下次我会读书，而且加努力 = )

上了中四，转变很大，所有的考试都不再像以前那么容易
全部都是要靠自己写，尤其是Sejarah这种乏味的科目
所以这次我们的成绩到底是光宗耀祖还是败坏家门？
看照片


人生的第一次，就给了它。。。

从我小学到中学，最低分数也是有25，然而这次。。真的是无言，
如果可以的话，我希望政府可以废除这科废+乏味的科目，
PMR我的成绩单美美，突然Sejarah来一个E =.=
所以我决定派我的律师，陈佳毅
去教育部门拍一部好像TNB那样的影片来帮我上述，
好让我可以说出我对Sejarah的不满。

希望我没找错律师，因为他的Sejarah也是14分罢了，
会是一位伟大的律师吗？炸到。。。哈哈
不过。。由于他擅长与沟通技巧，
例如：说一大堆从歌词抄来的肉麻话，跟你说一些有的没的的东西等等，
所以对他的信任度，百分之十，哈哈

接下来的考试，我知道我还是会拿这样的分数
但是，who cares？我不喜欢它就是不喜欢，
找不到理由去喜欢它，也不想找，
所以，我已经预测到我SPM的一科成绩了，
Sejarah- G9 哈哈
超diao

说完了成绩，现在勉勉强强来帮锐铨吧。
今天。。单纯的我，
被一位样貌看似40+岁，以及被他的一杯珍珠奶茶给收买了，
他就是锐铨。。
在班时，我，他和佳毅坐在一起说些废话，
例如，他们两人在比来比去，什么用鱼翅漱口，用鲍鱼刷身体等等
我在一旁听了15分钟，也笑足了15分钟

然后他就跟我说他跟她的东西，
而且还给我看她发给他的信息，
信息内容，18+
想知道的话，珍珠奶茶一杯，
我会考虑跟你说，哈哈
然后他就叫我帮他告白。

Erm.. XXX，其实锐铨是真的很喜欢你的（欺骗着自己）
我从来没看过他这么认真地喜欢这一个人，
从我认识他到现在，除了幼稚，不然就做些猴子做的东西
可是这次，他是很认真的，
希望你可以给他一次机会 = ）

锐铨，一杯罢了也只能马马虎虎帮你写，
如果再多几杯的话，我会写得更好，哈哈。

好啦，不说了。。晚安＝ ）

所谓的“好朋友” （3）

所谓的“好朋友”- 就是说她，不是，是他（陈佳毅）会连你的名字也写错，把你的Sheang 写成siang，即使做了7年的“好朋友”。

所谓的“好朋友”- 就是说在班上时，他们会跟别的女生一起高谈话论，一起开心而却留下你一个人静静坐在一旁似乎陌生人。

所谓的“好朋友”- 就是说在学校时，大家说好要一起ponteng，可是每次到最后一分钟时全部反悔，剩下你一个人真的自己ponteng回家。

所谓的“好朋友”- 就是说当你ponteng回家然后隔天去学校时，他们会对你说：“放心，你还可以ponteng多两次。”

所谓的“好朋友”- 就是说当你想要带你女朋友跟他们一起出去时，他们就会拒绝你，不让你带你女朋友一起出去，并且找了很多借口。例如，男人的世界等等。

所谓的“好朋友”- 就是说当你不借给他们motor时，他们就会摆脸色给你看。当你借他们时，他们却不会感谢你，并且好像理所当然应该借给他们。真心话一句，不想借。

所谓的“好朋友”- 就是说当你突然兴致勃勃打算开个烧烤会时，他们就会互相冷你，仿佛看死你绝对不能成功，有如三分钟热度。

这样的好朋友，我宁愿不要，这是什么好朋友？diao，FIX 啦 ！

Everyday dota.. dota and dota.. i have think to quit it but.......can't then the next day~ guess what?? continue again.. what so good with dota (my first wife) ?? FIX!!
(my second wife=my bike) & (my third wife=my helmet).. for her, it's LAME..
WTF!! she don't even have a position..hehe..

Don’t Dota Too Much

I am no longer the mage that governs purity and peace. I have dismissed that notion of governance and now my mind is stirred with only thoughts of vengeance and eradication, for that man. I am now the Keeper of the Darkness.” the grumpy voice projected through the speakers. I honestly didn’t give a f*** regarding whatever he was talking at that point of time because everything that has been happening were simply too bizarre. At first, it was simply mere fantasizing on thoughts about Dota and Chermaine. Then it was the appearance of Nerubian Assassin in real-life. Now, Dota heroes in the game who usually speaks about 2-3 phrases (Time to Go!, “Kas Dingo!”) as you moved them about with the right-click button are conversing with me through the monitor. I call this the hallmark of sheer freakiness.

hey my boy: " Do you think you are the epitome of DOTA??" ASSASSIN!!

Silence builds up, lasting forever Inside of me, memory neurons twitch Slowly released, fabric of greed Nothing makes sense, no one believes Shaking, shuddering, violence held back Racing, running, away from the past Eyes unblinded, seeing untold truths Negative emotions pervade within, through I feel distracted, not lost, but found Rescued by no one, only myself The tow rope, the floaty, the life line cast out I threw them and jumped, belief without doubt Walls closing in, illusionary visions Liquid distortion, tears from your eyes Exhaling, unconfidence, your only best friend Living in the mirror, but more so in your head I have tasted your loss, and reveled in it I have bested your best, and gloated about it I have never lost to you, and sometimes I wish I wasn't so arrogant, so right, so complete Cocaine diaries, marijuana mysteries Drugs polluting your body, only they feel right Unreasonable dictions, restless behavior I'm gone, only temporary, I'll be with you again.. dear DOTA~

The girl = )

It has been a long time that I didn't update my blog. So, tonight I will update my blog, at the same time, I will show you all who is my dar = )




Looking at this picture, I could feel that I am a lucky guy. A girl who does well in everything and now she becomes my dar.
I'm not going to leave you alone, I'm not going to make you sad, I'm going to love you until the end. = )

Actually, I do not know what to say now. So I decided to create a poem for her. I don't know it is poem or not = =.. but, I really made it for you, my dar = )

For the first time in my dismal life,
I feel love flow in my heart,
The same heart once thought cold and lifeless,
Fills with glorious joy and happiness.

Because of a woman,
Whose spirit is full of passion,
Her eyes that shine like sapphire stars,
Filled with warmth and beauty,
A smile that brings happiness to my sad existence.

I have never known love until now,
Because of the way she touched my heart,
Took hold of my depressed soul,
And showed me the beauty of life's wonders.

Everything that I thought impossible,
All seems to be within my grasp,
I see everything in a new light,
Because of something I thought unworthy to feel,
To feel love's tender kiss,
And I bask in its beauty so.

Because of the feelings of a woman,
Whom I would love now and forever,
My heart beats its final note to life's great song,
I love you = )

---------The End-----------

Thanks ^^
Written by Wilber Ho

Fall for you , my dar ~

When the first day I saw you, I felt strange. When the first day I met you, I felt you were unfamiliar.
And now, there's no more strange, no more unfamiliar between us.

Do all of you believe fall in love in first sight? Yes I do believe it. I was fallen in love with her, a girl who looked exactly beautiful, adorable.
Both of us extremely enthusiastic, the first day we met, we talked, I knew myself already got fond for you. You said you too.

This time I won't disguised, this time I won't devious, I'm hankering to be with you now and forever, no matter what.
These days I gonna crazy, missing you non-stop.. every moment, every second, your images keep appearing in my brain. I know that this time not a puppy love anymore.

You hug me tight, and never let it go. When I hug you, you say you feel security, and afraid that I take off my hands.
Your body is so fragrant, I couldn't forget the smell. When the night I slept, the smell kept surrounding me. And again, your images appeared in front of me, do you know?

The first night, you asked me if you got a crush with me, what would I do? I shocked and smile. I knew my lover was you, no doubt. My six sense told me that.
True love not so easy to find, and I've found you, I would appreciate you and protect you, no matter what, even sacrifice myself for you, I'm willing to do that = )

We had counted the stars together in the field, looking at each other even 10 hours also won't able to feel boredom. Just because I love you = )
She asked me what was my ambition, I smiled and answered her " my ambition is to accompany you to fulfill your ambition = ) " and she smiled.

What boy needs to do for a girl is loving her, just love her and that's all. Don't ask about her past, a mature guy won't do such things. What girl needs to do for a boy is to understand him, not always check him, this isn't call love.
Remember what I say = )

"When you love someone, set them free. If they come back, they were meant to be yours. If they didn't, they never were. -Wilber Ho" ^^